Depression - Dax

I can't find myself, mm

I get lost inside my brain

I think I might need help, mm

But I pushed all of 'em away

I took the cards they dealt

And there's nothin' I can change

So when I'm by myself

I just pray for brighter days

Sometimes I sit and I reminisce 'bout the good times

Wish I could get those back

I keep on runnin' these races that go in my mind

Then they go on these tracks

I'm not ready to erase all my memories, mm

I fight depression and I let it get the best of me

Now there's nowhere to run, nowhere to go

Look around, it's liquor bottles all on the floor

Fillin' up the space inside my heart and my home

Drownin' out these thoughts until they leave me alone

I can't find myself, mm

I get lost inside my brain

I think I might need help, mm

But I pushed all of 'em away

I took the cards they dealt

And there's nothin' I can change

So when I'm by myself

I just pray for brighter days

These thoughts are drainin' all my energy, mm

I try to tell 'em to God, they said I'm goin' insane

And then they recommended therapy, mm

And to go and talk to a man who's gettin' paid to explain

He started sayin' that the chemical imbalance is the reason that my brain

Ain't connectin' to accomplishments associated with movin' on

In life and past the things that my heart cannot contain

So the happiness won't sustain

Then he read me my options, mm

He said "Here goes a pill, only take two, wit' a meal"

And it'll numb how I feel (Numb how I feel, numb how I feel)

I can't find myself, mm (Can't find myself)

I get lost inside my brain

I think I might need help, mm (Think I might need help)

But I pushed all of 'em away

I took the cards they dealt (Took the cards they dealt)

And there's nothin' I can change

So when I'm by myself (When I'm by myself)

I just pray for brighter days

Should I drown all these thoughts, or should I leave 'em to float?

I got all of my flaws livin' inside of this boat

I've been anchored in pain, the weight is makin' me choke

It's gettin' harder to breathe, it's pullin' right at my throat

I've been hopin' for change, but don't know how to restart

They say you ain't a man when you exposin' your heart

Then they say you insane until it tears you apart

And then it cuts you so deep and they can tell by the scars

We can only see change when we accept who we are

Try to run from the shame and you will never get far

Don't you bottle the pain or live your life in the dark

You're meant to break from those chains and shine as bright as a star

Don't you ever tell yourself that your depression

Is the reason you won't make it or that happiness is not in your cards

With our God, you can beat all the odds

Keep your faith and you'll never be lost and say

I can't find myself, mm

I get lost inside my brain

I think I might need help, mm (I think I might need help)

But I pushed all of 'em away (I pushed all of them away)

I took the cards they dealt

And there's nothin' I can change

So when I'm by myself

I just pray for brighter days