If I Hadn’t Met You - Chelsea Cutler

If I hadn't met you

Would I be all alone?

Hiding in my bedroom

Living life through a phone

I'm scared of everything and everyone

Everything I haven't done yet

My head is in its own

I was a dreamer, but I hit my ceiling

I lie awake stone-cold most evenings

Hit the bleachers instead of playing

'Cause I gave up when it got frustrating

Then you find someone in your bed

Who doesn't hate the things that go on in your head

And out of everybody else that I met, it's you

You, if I didn't have you, I don't

Think I'd even leave my home

Wouldn't have no place to go, go

You, if I didn't have you, I don't

Think I'd be the same, I won't

Ever let you, let you go, go

If I hadn't met you

Would I lie through my teeth?

Hiding all the rest, you

Got the best part of me

I'm scared of letting anybody get

Close enough to have regrets

I get if you wanna go

I was a dreamer but I hit my ceiling

I lie awake stone-cold most evenings

Hit the bleachers instead of playing

'Cause I gave up when it got frustrating

Then you find someone in your bed

Who doesn't hate the things that go on in your head

And out of everybody else that I met, it's you, ooh

You, if I didn't have you, I don't

Think I'd even leave my home

Wouldn't have no place to go, go

You, if I didn't have you, I don't

Think I'd be the same, I won't

Ever let you, let you go, go

My bed is so tired of me

All the demons in my head are lying to me

There's a war between myself and who I'm tryna be

Now I don't know how to function in society

One, two, three medications

Just so I can have a fuckin' normal conversation

I sleep better when I've been sedated

I'm scared of everybody else and I hate it (And I hate it)

You, if I didn't have you, I don't (I don't)

Think I'd even leave my home (My home)

Wouldn't have no place to go, go

You, if I didn't have you, I don't (I don't)

Think I'd be the same, I won't (I won't)

Ever let you, let you go, go