Heather - ​grandson

2017

The first time you messaged me

First fan I ever had

Put me on when you were sad

Said you hated growin' up

You were sure that I'd blow up

Shared my song with all your friends

I could barely pay the rent

Singin' to an empty room

But I knew what I meant to you

You got the X's tattooed

Remindin' me I have you

Never got to thank you

I wouldn't be here without you, without you

Without you believin'

And now that I'm here without you, without you

The words have no meanin'

A promise was spoken, you're gone and I'm broken

Now I'm barely holdin' on, holdin' on

I wouldn't be here without you

Why am I here without you?

2021

Told me that you've come undone

Lost your job and lost your dad

Your biggest fan, he's all you had

X's covered up with scars

On your arm from self-harm

Message me, I don't reply

I wish I knew it was goodbye

Singin' to a crowded room

Saved a seat, I look for you

I made it to your hometown

Guess I'm on my own now

I wish I got to save you

I wouldn't be here without you, without you

Without you believin'

And now that I'm here without you, without you

The words have no meanin'

A promise was spoken, you're gone and I'm broken

Now I'm barely holdin' on, holdin' on

I wouldn't be here without you

Why am I here without you?

(I wouldn't be here without you, without you)

(I wouldn't be here without you)

This is dedicated

If you put me on your playlist

If you showed up to the stages

If I never get to say this

I'm proud of you

For all the shit that's drownin' you

And all the noise surroundin' you

Hope you find what I found in you

And I hope that you grow old with me

And we turn up 'til we're seventy

Play me at your wedding and you never leave

If you ever need anything and I don't pick up

Well, you still got a friend in me

Wish I said all that to Heather

Now I just hope she rests in peace