DINNER WITH [REDACTED] - Marty (USA) ft. Fern

Yeah, uh
Today I decided to live, leave it all to my kids
I'm sick of living in debt, I'm tired of just paying bills
Is this as good as it gets? Got me wanting to steal
Got me wanting to live it up and wish I didn't care
I cried on the way here, I think I saw someone stare
My car don't got a tint, that's a swing and a miss
I'm invested in me, one day I'll make sense
Until then, I'll pick a side, I can't live on the fence
I'm dancing on the altar like I'm a free man
Took a meeting with J and lost there hundred grand (Dang)
Ten years in, that's one third of my life
We all beating the odds, and God, I know how to fight
Probably got that from my dad
Learned how to pray from my moms
Say the wrong thing, I'ma swing like Solange, it's real

Looking for a real love
Or anything to fill the void up
Only if these walls could talk

Yeah, the game is rigged, I tell you that firsthand
No 401(k) or life insurance plan
He said he sold out, but you ain't never had the chance
I never had to perform like Bobby Shmurda did
In the middle of the office
Truth is, they asked, we gave them a hard pass
We laughed, and never got called back
Everybody so nice when you meet 'em
"Hit me when I'm in your city" and you never see 'em
The only thing I want is complete freedom
This is a new Marty, I still don't answer my DMs
I don't want promotion or collabs, I don't need 'em
The more you say no
The more they wonder how long you can keep it
Young me wouldn't even believe it

I don't know
I'm not happy anymore
I don't know what it is
I feel like I'm missing something in life, and
I don't know

Yeah, how long do I gotta walk around with a smile on my face like everything's A-OK? (For real)
I hate to kill the mood, but that wasn't Hillsong
That was "Fix You" by Coldplay
We all been hurt before, why you think you so special? (Huh?)
"God's son" across the belly
How much more could you possibly be more extra?
This is hip-hop, first and foremost
Show a little respect
RIP to the ones that we lost
We promise that we'll never forget
Life is beautiful, all that pain gon' make you stronger
You just gotta believe it
Uh, and I don't know how to say it any other way, man
It's gotta be Jesus

I know seasons aren't forever
I know I'ma make it
I know God has never, has never left me by myself
He's always come with me, I know
God's got me