​​butterflies - demxntia

Lets take it back back to the days where not a thing would matter
Not a care within the world wasn't really thinkin' 'bout her
But my eyes are feelin' heavy like the weight thats on my chest
Cuz lately I been feelin' empty but you should know that best

There's a void within my chest, but my mind full
Next time I wanna get attached, I'll be mindful
Instead of walkin' on a tightrope with a blindfold
And expecting not to fall into this everlasting cycle

I swear this is Deja Vu
Because I know I wrote at least a hundred songs just about you
I know I probably shouldn't want you
But you help me take my mind off all the things that I been through

Stuck reminiscing 'bout the times that we had
(Thinking about the times that I made you laugh)
Stuck reminiscing 'bout the times that we shared
(Every time I close my eyes I see you there)

Every time I hear your voice it gives me butterflies
Tryna hide the fact that I get anxious when I look into your eyes
And I tell myself these lies
That I hope you never hear
The lies that I was writing when I was mising you my dear

Now lying wide awake, I wonder why I feel this way
This empty heart gets colder almost every single day
I've been staring at these four white walls
Like do I mean a thing to you at all?

So take away my ability to feel
Because I'd rather numb my senses than feeling something that ain't real
Every night my heart is sinking
Or maybe I'm just overthinking I'm not so sure

Maybe I'm just wasting all my time
Cuz every time we cease communication I feel so confined
And every night I think of you
Wonder if you feel the same way that I do?

Every night I think of you
Wonder if you feel the same way that I do?